I’m going to Port Orange for a few days and then Daytona on Friday. This will be the first holiday I’ve ever spent away from my Dad. I’m not sure how to handle this. So I’m thinking I’ll just sleep through Thanksgiving instead of actually having to deal with it. Good plan? Yea, I thought so too.

My eyes are so heavy and the tips of my fingers feel like cinder blocks. I’m going to give in to my body and let myself drift away now.

You are basically a dude in destroyed leggings.

bbones:

i dont care about nice clothes. i dont care about big houses. i dont care about fast cars. i dont care about expensive shit. all i want is to enjoy the suns rays, to enjoy the people i love around me, and enjoy a small apartment, big enough for two. with a nice big bed thats comfortable. with white sheets so our tanned bodies would look good on it. i wouldnt care if i had a moped or a shitty bike to get around. all i need is a nearby grocery store and i`m good. maybe a beach to swim in because we cant afford a pool, because beaches beat pools any fucking day. id want a cat, so i can cuddle with it when im alone. id want a night job so we can sleep in during the mornings and have morning sex. eat cheap chinese take out every now and then and have candle lit dinners, if we`re poor, candlelit dinners with cheeseburgers from in-n-out. we`ll get in arguments and we`ll hate eachother but then you`ll crack a stupid joke and make me laugh and we`ll kiss eachother and it`ll be like nothing even happened. we`ll go home during the holidays and i`ll tell my parents how much i appreciate them and how glad i am that they raised me into the person i am today, because i`ll be truly greatful for that. but if all of this doesnt include a partner in crime, i`ll be okay. maybe i`ll be better, maybe i won`t, either way it`ll be an experience. i cant wait to get my life started.

You’re my best friend. I miss you more and more everyday and right now, as I type this, I hate that you aren’t hanging out with me and going out with me tonight. Things would be so much more fun with you back here. I’m sad. I really am counting down the days until I see you and get to give you your hug that I never gave before you left. I think that’s what bothers me the most. We’re going to live happily ever after. Don’t need no men in our lives, we’ll be those crazy old ladies smokin’ cigs on our front porch in our underwear jammin’ to MILLIONAIRES………….. I don’t think anyone does that. hahahahaha. Anyways, LOVE YOU.

I love someone, and her name is Kady Schmid.

damn gurl ur so prety fo real dead assssss im on sum serious shit yo, i wan take you out fo dinner and shiiit you gon love the steak imma get chu baby gurl fo real not even jokin seriousss, then we gon go watch a movie about like 57 dresses or some shit with that gurl from dat movie knocked up fo real doe, u gon like dat shit real talk but shaniqua gon hit me up whilst we bonding and shit and she gon fuck shit up and i apologize fo dat yo cuz like we dont even talk no mo know wut im sayin gurl..so dont worry bout nothing..ma, and shaniqua..we done..its you and me now baby. just kidding. youre a sweet kid and i hope you make yourself happy for the rest of your life.

Ken I holla? <3

ohey giirrrl.
you’re cute.

ohey strangerrr, thank you.

I wish I knew you in real life. I think we could relate.

Real life is overrated anyway.

And now Anthony Moldovan has a death wish.

By a kid who listens to Suicide Silence and Bring me the Horizon. Fuck off. That shits so weak.

Ask me things.

You know Neil Diamond? Well I used to call him Neil Sporin like Neosporin. I’m going to marry him. My name will be Kady Sporin. “Hello Kady Sporin how are you today?” “Well I’m just fine Neil!”…. Whats his middle name? He doesn’t need one…………. Dillon Pickles!

You’re going to be the star on my christmas tree. I’m serious, I’m going to cut a picture out of your face and put it on an angel. My mom collects them and I’m going to do it. You know that picture thats your default on facebook? I’m using that picture because thats what an angel should look like I think. Cause its badass.